Until the jar ran dry
What are these—
puppies, it turns out
All this time
while the music washed over me
my hand wandered
unthinking
into a jar of sweetness
I ate
and ate
until absence
spoke louder than presence
only then realizing
each one was formed
like a plump little puppy
Meanwhile
Nuna—my cat—
lingered in discomfort
one eye dimmed
by conjunctivitis
just back
from the clinic
A breath returned
to the body
coffee cooling
beside me
smoke rising
without urgency
Puppies
Puppies
I tell myself now
It was me
I did it
I reduced them
to nothing
And still
I had been devouring
that brittle
sugared comfort
without question
without seeing
What does that make me
if not kin
to those men
who devour
without looking
who rename hunger
as policy
who call ruin
necessity
Puppies
Puppies
I tell myself now
It was me
I did it
I reduced them
to nothing
Until the jar
ran dry
